Same story, different day
Do you ever feel like you are constantly having to be reminded of the same things? Somedays, I wonder if my thick skull will ever quite grasp certain spiritual truths and that I won't have to be reminded so often of them. Our Thursday morning Bible Study has started a new study based on the Deeper Still conferences by Priscilla Shirer, Beth Moore, and Kaye Arthur. The book is Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed: A Study of David. We are just into the second week and for the most part, it has been good, but I haven't loved it like I have loved some of the other Bible studies that we have done. Then, this morning, I am working on my lesson and it is about being disappointed/frustrated with where life has put you and for the first page and a half, I am thinking that I am good (that was probably my first problem!). My life certainly has not ended up where I thought that it would, and while I have been disappointed and sad about that, I also don't feel like I have been disappointed with God or angry at Him for that fact--does that make sense? I don't think that I am deluding myself when I say that those are two different issues in my mind. So, then, I come to this sentence in the study: "Whatever your life entails right now--no matter how far removed it seems from what you expected--He has anointed you and divinely equipped you to not merely handle it, but to thrive in it." I often don't feel very divinely equipped to be a mom, to work the job that I am working, to be a wife to a medical school student, but the truth is that we have been given 'everything that we need for life and godliness' (I Pet 1:3) and on my own, I am not divinely equipped, but through the power of His Holy Spirit working in me, I am not just able to fulfill the tasks given to me in this season of my life, but I am able to thrive, to do them well, to honor God with the results. It was such a good reminder to me. I know that God has brought us where we are for a reason; we have clearly seen His hand working in our lives. So why do I often live as if I am struggling to make it through the days? Lord, forgive me, and help me to see You in the every day moments and even when I don't see Your plan, help me to live with the confidence and knowledge that there is a plan, because that, after all, is what faith is.